Well...what can I say?  It's been a tough week to say the least.  We've been stressed at work, busy at home, and we're so tight on money this month that everything is a luxury (a.k.a. not possible right now).  We've been off track all week long, and we're seeing our weight go nowhere.  We NEED Bob & Jillian!  I know once we get started and the weight really does come down, it'll be so exciting to get on the scale each week, but right now, it feels like a huge disappointment, and I hate to write about it.  I knew going into this that there would be weeks like this, but I didn't think it would happen so soon!  We were supposed to start out strong, and keep that momentum going, (hello, PRESENT MOMENTUM is our name...) but we're being held back for some reason.  Mostly laziness, I've decided, but also stress and the fact that my mind races every night before I finally fall asleep.  It's rough.  So, with all that drama floating around in our world, we've decided that it's time to re-commit.  Jen actually came up with the title of today's blog, so I guess she's been thinking about it for a while! 

 

What does it mean to re-commit?  Well, if you take it literally, it means to commit for the second (or third, or fourth) time...to commit again.  So, seeing that this is about our 547th time of re-committment, I think we need to actually start acting like we're serious about this.  We know we want to lose the weight; we're just hesitating.  Jillian would be on me hard for this: I just don't know if I can do it.  I feel like I can't, so I struggle to get started.  I know there are things I CAN do, but for some reason, I'm still hesitating.  I hate that.  I think the only way I'm going to actualy overcome my hesitation is to just do it.  I think I'm going to do that today.

 

Jen has to work a few hours at her job today, so I'll work out for awhile while she's gone.  I know that sounds strange; after all, this is supposed to be a TEAM effort, right?  But sometimes, I think I can focus better when it's just me.  I'll aim for 20 minutes on the elliptical machine and a 30-minute (or so) yoga video.  I toyed around with yoga in high school, and I loved it.  I'm actually very flexible for a fat person.  When I was in high school, my cousin (5 years younger than me) and I found a basic yoga book with great photography of the poses and great written descriptions of the correct movements.  We created our own routine, and took a tape recorder and recorded ourselves reading the correct steps to do the poses.  We would play that tape every morning for about 6 or 8 weeks over summer vacation, and we really started to see a change.  Once we got back to school, we gave it up.  I wish I had found a class during college (or even now!) to continue, but as they say, Life got in the way!  I know the benefits are there; I just need to make it a habit, along with eating healthier, exercising regularly, and keeping track of our money!  It feels like I'm reinventing my whole life all at once, which is overwhelming.  I know the popular advice is to take one thing at a time, but I always feel like I'm running out of time - that my life is slipping away and I don't want to miss anything.

 

My goals for this week are to: Complete 4 workouts (at least 20 minutes on the elliptical machine), at least 4 yoga sessions (follow the video), blog on here at least 3 times, drink more WATER every day, and start my January money summary (we keep track with Microsoft Money - a great investment).  I think that's good.  I'm trying to get my entire life organized, so having concrete goals will definitely help.  I'm going to schedule these things into my planner for the week, and schedule time to write to keep you updated on our progress.

 

Thanks to everyone who leaves a little note of encouragement.  You don't know how much that means when we've struggled like we have this week.  It's great to know there's a community of people out there who "get" us.  Good luck to you also.  The hardest part is getting the momentum; once you've got it, everything should fall into place more easily.  At least, that's what I'm hoping!  We're still trying to catch it!!  We'll keep you posted!  Have a great week!!